In gastroscopy, the physician inserts a thin tube that
contains a light and camera (called a gastroscope) through the mouth and esophagus and into the stomach. The gastroscope
allows the physician to see the inside of the stomach. Small instruments can be passed through the gastroscope and used to remove a sample of tissue for examination (biopsy) in a Laboratory. A local anesthetic is used to reduce sensation in the esophagus during this procedure.

18th June. I have to do a test like this. Actually it should be done this Wed.

But the clinic just called and said its appointment are all fully booked.

Someone please tell me that i am scaring myself and it's just nothing but a very simple proccedure that will only last for a few seconds with no pain no feel nothing.

I've been trying very hard to hold back my tears as i stepped out of the family doc's clinic yesterday. I think i'll be a very brave girl. I believe i won't shed a tear. When i fell down and broke my chin during rollerblading last year, lost alot of blood, was in alot of pain, but i didn't drop a single tear either.

So. I told myself i won't cry this time too.

But perhaps there's one thing i just don't understand.

Why it has to be me?

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你是答案 - 范玮琪

如果世界忘了旋转 谁用春光让冬夜温暖

如果星星不那么灿烂 谁还会向它许愿期待她陪伴

如果今天泪光闪闪 谁让明天值得我乐观

如果怕风少了安全感 谁把我放在宇宙中心宠爱

而你是我的答案 最确定的答案

像走在一条花开的路 不会错过美满

缘分转几个弯 证明我们不会走散

学会用眼神牵手那才浪漫 你是我的答案

不变的答案 有了自己的天使

做什么都显得勇敢 顺着梦的沿岸

只有收获没有遗憾 被握着手心

看的未来永远蔚蓝