－ Faith VS. Destiny -

Everyday when i opened my Yahoo mail, it will be FLOODED with AT LEAST 30 spam mails from some astrology site with subject titles like:

"Evelyn_****, Is he the PERFECT MATCH for you?"

"Evelyn_****, Daily tarot love reading for you!"

*rolls eyes*

Well, if you know me... I'm a SUPER believer in astrology... Usually i buy U-weekly cos got a column at the back tokking abt my star signs. And whatever it says inside, i will gong dai dai believe one.

There was once, the astrology said that me and my bf will be going thru some rough patches.

So i told Fren abt it. Of cos, i think i'm too gullible.

I actually told Fren i 100% BELIEVED in it !!!

I am quite heng, cos he just commented that i should treat it as a joke and dump the negative thoughts aside.

Well, but after being a STAUNCH believer of the star signs for DONKEY YEARS,

it's SUPREMELY HARD for me NOT to believe in it !!! *sweats*

But i'm trying v v v hard lah....

Of cos i think most importantly is how much faith i have in the r/s and him...

Rather than to brood over superstitious stuffs like these... And inevitably spoil the r/s by harbouring silly/negative/stooooopid thoughts.

Faith over destiny?

I don't know... But i think it's important to try things out and enjoy the ride....

IGNORE the possible obstacles that we MIGHT be facing.

Else i will never ever get out of the vicious cycle = Negative thoughts ---> Discuss with Fren ---> Caused unnecessary unhappiness ---> Unhappier.

Rough patches? The signs say we are not going to last?

At least, i have today to enjoy.

换个角度思考，便会发现另一片更辽阔的天地。

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By the way, i think girls' opinions of guys/bfs/husbands/marriage changes DRASTICALLY after they are 25 lehs.

Like....

I used to go for nice looking guys when i was much younger. But now, personality/charisma scores higher points.

I thought i will get married by 25. But ... Looking at the high divorce rates, those dramas screening guys hitting/cheating on their wives (channel 8 show lah where the guy whose supposedly to be average lookin and 老实 actually 偷吃 and even have a baby with his mistress! *gawks*) ... And also, i think my family background and frens/my own experiences influenced me quite abit too.

SO.....

i don't know if what i'm thinking is too extreme. Just wana pen down some thoughts in here and left the rest open for discussion.

Too extremist?
I don't know.
Too negative?
I don't know.

Tell me.

Anyway, i think i'm contradicting myself. Again. Muahaha~ *slaps myself*