Sometimes, anticipation can be pretty tiring.

You waited...

You can almost feel it coming...

You think if you make the effort to do something, it usually pays off.

You know how long you have anticipated for this second to come.

And so,you waited.

waited....

and waited.

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Yet once again,

i waited. but didn't get to see the sunrise.

It'll better if i don't harbour any expectations ):

Maybe when i gave up .... the unexpected might happen.

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Bought these dvds today, with the exception of my sassy girl.

Gona kill my weekend time hugging the tv set.

Plus these shows are those that i missed in the cinema!! WoOhoo...

It's popcorn time! *gRinz*

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These days, i have been running away from people.

People whom i'm afraid to open up to. People who are always finding answers that i'm unable to provide them with.

Becos like a deep well whose bottom can't be seen, i don't know what's running through those confused minds.

And i never like to guess what you're thinking. Becos dat's too tiring. Neither do i like to make friends just for the sake of having more friends.

Unlike some pple who might get close to you for whatever reasons,

i'm somebody who depends alot on how i feel when i'm ard you.

i used to be someone who opens up readily to everyone.

Now, i'd rather be alone and observe before i'm ready to open up to you.

I can't say if i'm happier this way.

But at least i felt comfortable.

Just like when you're sad, you don't have to tell the whole world that you're not feeling okay.

Today in msn, you suddenly dropped me this msg:

"you know, kexin, in person you seem much more reserved."

and you carried on telling me how u can't be yourself when you're ard some pple,
hw you can't be the true you for whatever reasons.

But to me, that's part & parcel of life.

Maybe we shld all learn to care lesser abt hw others look at you, just be your most comfortable self and heck those who misunderstood you.

There's just only so much u can control in your life.

I ended the conversatn by telling u:

as long as you love your life, nobody can mk you feel bad abt yourself.

Yet you carried on telling me hw you once got ostracize by your friends...how you wanted people to notice you... etc.

Someday, hopefully when u look back to today, you'll remember what i'd told you and regained the true you once again.

It's difficult. People might not like the true you. So what?

It's you, yourself, that's the most precious gem on earth.

And i was so close to telling you, why i've turned so reserved ard you.

But i didn't.

Some people, perhaps it's too early for them to understand.