It isn't just about suntanning, beachwaters, sun or the fishy fishy.

It's a second of silence & peace before the goodbyes set in.

Lesser pictures taken, more memories created.

Taken with my eyes, archived into the brains.

But i couldn't explain why...

This time round, the feeling is totally different from the last.

Previously, i was able to relax and truly truly have fun.

This time, i was trying my best to enjoy.

And it's getting into me, i took out my mp3 and started listening to songs in the kelong... Sound therapy? Trying to close my eyes and go to sleep... Ignore the world that's going around me... Then i happened to listen to the dong li huo che song... and the lyrics hit on me so hard... i repeated the song at least 3 times...

Hopefully, the next trip, i will be able to get some peaceful moments, just fishing by the sea, just looking at the sea... cutting poor sotongs, watching the sunrise... watching the sunset... watching the stars... watching the clouds... watching the waves go up and down... up and down.....

Sometimes.. when the crowd gets too big.. noisy ... and everyone seems to be very friendly with everyone.....

i'd rather retreat to a world of my own once again... there's no need for me to make any noises...no need to talk... no need for me to response to questions i dont know hw to answer... i just need to look at the sea...

Call me a dao kia. i love being dao (:

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i hope he achieves half of his dreams to go in. At least... Some certainity?

It's a killer to be so near yet so far.

He deserves recognition.

Not a twist of fate at this juncture,i hope.

Shall be praying very hard...

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I was on my way to school today...

Then i recalled a picture of little Dora... Playing with the sand... Enjoying her own 'time' that no second person should interrupt...

Then this phrase came into my mind:

"Think like a child"

Yes. Think like a child. When you'r happy you clap your hands.

When you'r happy and you know and you really want to show, when you'r happy and you know you clap your hands.

This song began repeating in my head over & over again.

Then i realise we've forgotten the basics.

To be happy as and when you can be. And spread your smiles.

To be happy about small things, and forget all the sad things the next second.

Anything that makes u sad? Pretend to cry. Pretend to pout.

Then the next second? Someone shoves u a lollipop and u laugh like you've never been sad before.

That's what a kid is like... right? Simple tgs happy already.

I'll pretend to pout the next time something upsetting happens.

What's wrong with pouting?

Inside, i'm still a kid that refuses to grow up (: