I realised...

i have this innate ability to push guys to other girls.

[Note:] Not just tom dick or harry. But guys that like me or vice versa.

For eg,

I will ask them to try it out wif girls whom i deduced have better qualities:

Better figure, prettier faces, nice character.

Anybody whom i thought, deserves him alot better than i do.

Esp if i 'sense' that the girl likes him as well.

Of cos, this doesn't apply to all guys.

And of cos,

i don't really mean to chase them away or wish to see them hanging out w other girls.

I just have this weird thinking that if i was the one who chased them away 1st,

it's better than them leaving me eventually.

A fear? A phobia? Lack of confidence? Jealousy? Insecurity?

Sad to say, i bagged them all.................

*好烂啊。。。*

I've came to a conclusion that the only solution is to make myself feel better abt WHO I AM.

And try my best NOT to let my mind run wild...

I'll try.

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Why make me discover the truth only until now?

As i'm ready to take off from the past... from someone else...

U appeared into my life once again.

Is this just pure coincidence?

Or a hint to me..

that sometg might be brewing again?

all these while, i thought i meant nothing...

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Ever since Joe started on his part-time course in SIM,

we've lesser n lesser time to hang out for ktv & movies...

So happie to rcv his call last night...

i miss his lame jokes n his company~

My fav friend!!! Come back uh!!!

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Msn*

Junhong: "Hey.. I put our pic in frenster then a few friends kept asking me who r u lei... Irritating..."

Me:"Wahaha *shuangs* they nice anot? Handsome anot?"

JH: Eh... Okiez lor. Quite nice, all come frm a gd family backgrd, have no bad habits.

Me: THEN!!! U got highly promote me anot??? Muahaha

JH: One of them says u look like model in the pic lei... then ask me hw u look like in real. I finished off the conversation by replying him one short & sweet sentence. hehehe

Me: Wat did u say???

JH: Don't even fantasize. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA *xiao xin shaking his butt emoticon*


Sometimes, i felt like castrating him.