I was once a person quick with words and emotions. Sometimes too serious when talking, and sometimes not sensitive to my surroundings. However, i am thankful that through these years, i have learnt a big deal on how to handle emotions, how to smile while i speak, and how to pay sensitivity to other people's feelings.
On the contrary, the bf is one who speaks well anytime, anywhere.
He is ultra sensitive to the emotions of others, knowing how to pick the right words at the right time, and always making other people feel at ease. I was puzzled at how he managed to do all these, and concluded all as a "born talent".
Then during one sharing, he shared that he wasn't like this initially. It takes years of effort and of course, dealings with people, to reach to who he is today. He went through the exact same problem as i had eons ago. He made people mad, didn't really bother about what other people think (give a f***ing shit to what other people say, in his words) and was mainly quiet and reserved.
I was giving him the "HELL NO!" expression when he shared.
Later on in awhile, he shared further on how his belief anchored him in life, trained him to open up to people of all kinds (as he was a chief leader, and was "forced" to talk to many people working with him initially), and finally, he opened up, feeling a lot happier, and achieved more than what he thought he can in life.
That was when i started to receive teachings from his belief and was deeply enlightened by what was preached. It was the first time that i made sense to what was told, compared to the past when i was "forced" to read the bible, when the ex actually gave me one on V-day, and reminding me to read as and when i can. Well, of cos' i didn't finish the bible, so i can't comment.
Life is really a miracle.
I have fought hard for what i have always thought i wanted. Until lately, after embracing the belief, i began to think harder: Are these seriously what i wanted?
I do not want to sway, for i have been swaying like a pendulum for the past 29 years.
I want to have an anchor in my life, a philosophy that guides my decisions, actions and words.
And i am happy, cos' i have found it :)
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Was rummaging through tons and tons of photos in my old computer a days ago.
Pretty interesting to see how me and my friends have grown. Some i have lost contact, some drifted, but a whole lot of them stayed, and we grew closer through the years :)
Just as i was about to shut down the computer, this picture caught my eye:
The date caught my attention further: 2007
Almost immediately, i watsapp the bf:"Hey, you rem where we took this photo?"
"No idea leh!" The bf replied.
So, we met a long while before we fell in love.
We were actually so close, but none of us remembered. After which, he finished his contract teaching and went NIE. I continued being a teacher. Then 2 years later, he returned. Our fate continued.
We went one big round and finally ended up with each other =)
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