Moving on.

For a long time, it has been quite a struggle for me to move on from my past.

Be it friendships that deteriorated, relationships that failed to work, the memories never left.

With time, bad memories became better to bear with. Good memories? They stayed.

For the longest time in my life, i have been trying to let go of a group of ex-friends who, because of my immaturity and misunderstandings, have left me for good.

No news. No need for any explanation. Zero contact.

For the longest time, i have no closure.

I do not exactly understand if they left because of those silly accusations, or simply because... Well, they do not need me as a friend.

If one thinks it's easy to let go without a proper closure, that's probably cos you have never really went through the feeling of losing someone/people who meant important to you.

Time moves on. I stayed behind. Miracles do not happen in my life, though for the longest time, i hope they reflected on their actions, realize that OMG! We need her as a friend! Then welcome me back into the group with arms wide open.

After 5 years have passed, i know that's not going to happen. Bet everyone's going to say, "Huh? 5 Years!? You should have just spent 5 days!"

Well........ They were once very important people in my life. A big part of my life was once, largely spent with them. Hotel getaways, wedding preparations, weekly gatherings, laughter, sorrows...

After 5 years, i have finally come to an important decision in my 28 years of life - let go.

What will happen, will. What is not meant to be, leaves.

The most important lesson which i've learnt?

People come, people go. It takes two hands for relationships to rekindle. And most importantly, always to treasure people who are important to you.

Fair weather friends? Goodbye.

But i am certain, that with or without them, my life goes on.

Though difficult, a big part of me is still happy for myself, that i have come to this decision i know i won't regret.