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May be (most probably, 90%) will be blanjah-ing mamee dearest to the country of the rising sun this coming dec =)

Been procrastinating for awhile. But thought it will be a good break for me & my mum who has been so worried for me previously, that she almost got stroke from rising high blood pressure.

After coming back, i will then (most probably too!) jio Ling to go the land of Sawadikap!

Actually we IS wana go see Tiger show.

Wahaha... Nopes lah. We planning to do 1 week of community work with the villagers, and maybe a few more days of sightseeing and walking ard the bustling city.

Since our last trip to Taiwan eons ago, i've been pinning to go on a trip again with my JC best friend =) Hope it comes true!

No matter what, i must at least get out of Spore and keep my sanity alive! >,<

Next,

i'm spoilt for choices! =P Been wanting (waiting) to get a ride for myself. Right now, there are 3 choices in mind:

1) Honda Fit 1.3 Luxury ($66K)

10 slurps!! Ultimate chio-ness!!! Type, model, colour that i wanted... All in 1 package... Slurps...

2) Toyota Yaris 1.5 Luxury ($61K)

Not a fan of toyota, but 3 slurps for its fuel saving. =P

3) Mazda 2 1.5 V ($64K)

5 Slurps for this car! Type, model and colour(either black or white) that i want.

But.... Heard Mazda drinks oil like there's no tomorrow. Ahhh ............

Anyways, i'll be car viewing again this coming weekend morning! Happy! ^^,)/

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Someone commented i looked visibly happier now.

Which is good news for me, because i've been trying very hard to crawl out of the shit hole that i've dug for myself.

I just woke up one day, went to work as usual, came home, watched my dvd and went to sleep. Then realised i've forgotten to countdown (i've been counting down to how many days of no contact with him.). It was then, that i realised i've accepted.

If only i've been sane enough to heed my poor friends' advice, i'd have been much happier much earlier. =(

Oh well, everything happened for a reason. Maybe someone up there wants me to really had a bad fall, so when i'm on my own once again, i'll be stronger and knows what i want better.

Had pangs of loneliness, that's inevitable i guess, but i realised i have learnt how to deal with that much better. Watching tv at home and sleeping as early as 9pm no longer seems daunting to me.

(YES, doing stuffs like these were once SCARY to me. Can u believe that?)

And i no longer tries hard to please anyone anymore. I don't need someone to be there for me, so i can have someone to provide me with TLC. I know what makes me happy, so i can give TLC to myself much better than anyone else.

I'm QUEEN.

I'm glad it happened when i was 27 and not 22 or 23. If i had been too young, i may not learn from experience (given my maturity level back then).

And MAEness had been feeding me superbly well with steamboat dinner, shaved ice dessert, and we actually spent $60+ on imported nipponese snacks at OG. OMG. Wahaha... Two aunties getting super perked up upon seeing shelves of goodies right smacked before us. Woohoo! Thanks to her, the meals & walking around town proved to be therapeutic in some ways. =)

I'm getting happier. And there's no other moment like this, where i truly feel special abt this whole new feeling.

I won't forget the pain that has subsided nor the asshole who made me this way. Not forgetting doesn't mean holding on, it simply meant i will never allow myself to go thru the same shit again.

I love my new life. I love the reborned me. I love me. =)

And i know there's always my dearest family & friends who love me too. =))