I have this big part in me that refuses to grow up.

From the clothes i like & will buy, to usual shopping in far east to update my wardrobe........

All the way to the fact dat i still play neopets.

Okays, laugh your head off lah, i don't care and i won't deny. *bLEhs*

Though sometimes it feels abit out of place to visit shopping centres like cineleisure where a huge bunch of youngsters, smokers usually flooded the whole place.

And stepping into Forever 21 boutique makes me feel a tad embarassed too. But i don't realie care lah, cos i love their accessories and dresses.

When u reach a age, you just wan to do things that make u feel happy and don't realie care how people look at you, cos...

Those strangers u bump in the boutiques don't know who you are either.

But it feels damn shiok to deny my own age & do things that make me feel alot younger.

I'll definitely not become someone who stays at home after retirement. No-no.

As if retirement is near. Shucks...

年轻无极限。

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Where will we go after we died?

This morning, a woman called into the radio station and told the whole world that her cancer cells have spread from her fallopian tube to her intestines.

She was crying and complaining dat her doctor did not detect any symptoms when she first contracted fallopian tube cancer, though she went for checkup every 6 months.

Then now they told her the cancer cells have spread, and she's left with only months to live.

Life is unfair and nothing seems to be certain.

If you have only months to go before you leave this world, what will u choose to do?

Most people say they will probably spend their last days with their loved ones.

I'll most probably do the opposite.

The more i spend with my closest ones, the more i can't bear to let them go. The more i will want to spend time with them, laugh with them, cry with them and so,

it will only make me suffer more in the end.

I will gladly choose to be left all alone.

Will be going for a specialist checkup 6 days before my october birthday.

And this isn't my best birthday present. Guess it will be painful, like what the polyclinic doctor had told me.

Anyways,

I doubt i will have any birthday celebration this year.