- The Worst Reason -

Sometimes, i sat by the bedside and wonder what gives people the courage to just turn away from a long time r/s.

Was it a new guy/gal?

Was it a sudden realisation?

If it's just a new guy/gal, it's better. At least you know he/she is a bastard/bitch and you can just make do with it by hating him/her every single day till the day the hatred is gone.

If it's just a sudden realisation "cos i no longer love you, but baby, rest assured there's nobody else in the picture", it's perhaps harder to swallow. And it's probably also the worst scenario. It's the same as your boyfriend telling you "I'VE TURNED GAY."

Becos' there's no SUFFICIENT reason as to why he/she is leaving you. Even though dat reason alone seems sufficient enough for someone to desert you.

When there's no "reasonable" reason as to why someone can leave without looking back, it's extremely extremely for one left behind to let go.

So if someday Fren is to leave me, i hope that he will not use this phrase:
"I have no more feelins' for u."

Perhaps just cook up a wonderful,dramatic story like he realises he is deeply in love with his bunk mate, he fell in love with the old, haggard looking, awfully full of wrinkles female boss, or he is just simply going to be an unmarried priest for the rest of his life.

It's farnie how my thoughts run wild when everything is fine. :)

But sometimes what happen to people around me taught me things which i think is important to learn. Of cos i do not want anything to happen (CHOY!) but if fate really does me another wrong turn, i believe i know better how to handle it this time.

Bear with me, for i'm always having wild, silly thoughts like these. :P

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Thnks to Mrs Lion-to-be! I'm enlisted for a so-called *online survey*! :p

1.小时候的理想是什么？

当个每天可以打扮得漂漂亮亮的 OL.
后来是当个开花店的老板娘。
后后来是能够当个每天到处跑的记者。

现在... 却沦落到这个地步。

天啊！！！！！！为什么要这样对我！！！！？？？？

2.这辈子最快乐的是什么事？

还没过一辈子，所以暂时没办法回答。

3.你觉得，什么样的事情可以让你废寝忘食、埋头苦干？

最槽糕的一次是准备　A LEVELS　的考试。

4.如果有机会的话，你最想对你讨厌的人说什么？

一辈子也不要再见了。老死不相往来对谁都好。

5.你最想去哪个地方？

FINLAND.圣诞老人的故乡，四季都是飘着雪花的人间天堂。

6.最受不了自己哪个缺点？

不知道自己要的是什么、容易悲观

7.如果有不开心的事情，你会怎么办？

假装没事，然后一个人跑去购物，一个人搭远程巴士，一个人边听音乐边跑步。

8.最喜欢的经典名句：

“人，往往在失去之后才懂得珍惜，但往往已迟了一步”

9.五年内比较现实的目标是什么？

工作、赚钱、旅行、继续工作、过着安定、快乐的生活

10.若遇见喜欢的人，你会怎么样？

什么都不做。通常只会远远地看着，就能够得到暂时的快乐。

11.现在最想做什么？

睡觉、旅行

12.你最希望你的另一半对你做的一件事？

永远忠诚、让我更了解他

13.你最讨厌怎样的人？

表里不一的人

14.什么情况下，你最紧张？

被困在人多的小空间里

15.你最想为另一半做的一件事？

永远让他感觉幸福

16.什么人最让你受不了？

喜欢说自己很利害，其实一点内涵也没有的人

17.如果让你实现一个愿望，会是什么？

身边的人，包括自己都健康

18.如果能够让你卸下工作，抛开工作，给你放一整天的假，你会。。。

到海边去吹风、看海、玩球、来个海鲜大餐

19.觉得这一生最亏欠的人是：

母亲、自己。

20.觉得人生最重要的是什么？

知足