I've been reading blogs randomly these few weeks. One of the reasons why i hadn't been on msn was probably due to this new-found hobby.

When i read blogs, i don't like to tok. Period. Only can focus one thing at a time. So chum right?

Well, lately I just developed love for reading girls' blogs.
Esp gals who just walked out of shitty relationships.

It's very eerie, but somehow or rather, it seems to be the "breakup" season now. Almost out of 5 girlie blogs i read, 3 are undergoing these kind of shit.

The things they r going through are somewhat similar to. Here's the sequence:

1) Boy gives girl a SUPER LAN excuse to break up. Girl tries ways and means to win him back. Failed. Re-tried. Failed. Self-empathy and alienation from the rest began. Refusal to accept the fact dat he's gone. Refusal to help herself. Shut away from friends cos they will just keep on telling her what a jerk the guy has been.

2) Recalling what promises Boy used to say to her. Recalling what, where, how they had been through all these months/years. Cried. Choked. Cried. Wana die but cannot die.

3) Tried to go out with friends. Tried to forget. Tried to delete all smses, photos, memories they once shared. Better in the day, walk like a corpse at night.

4) Found out the SUPER LAN EXCUSE he gave was RUBBISH. Truth is, he met someone NEW. But not willing to tell the truth. Recalling and blaming herself for neglecting all those details while they were together that say:
"HEY, YOUR GUY IS SEEING ANOTHER GIRL."
Gal hates Boy. Gal scolds Boy.
Gal swears never to see him again/ never to love again/ never to forgive him.

5) Baby steps to recovery. Still misses him. Still cries. But the hours of crying had stopped. Replaced by going out with friends. Going parties. Going out going out going out. Anything, but the BASTARD. Hate overwhelmes love.

6) Reborn. A new purpose/ new work/ new friends/ new goals/ met new guy.

7) Surprise. She has forgotten when was the last time she cried for him.

It's always the last stage that empowers me and keeps me curious and wanting to know how things will eventually turn out i guess.

I love seeing how people of my species turning stronger. Stronger than what they imagined. Stronger & happier than when they were with the bastard.

I believe in karma. What goes round, comes round.

And to all the female species who had been through shit, this is for u: