- Coincidental Memories -

After all these years, as i coincidentally stumbled upon the blog, as i browsed through the pics... The similar face..... The same kind of aching pain.... actually.... still very much surprisingly existed.

I don't know how to put that mixture of feelings into words.

Maybe some pain will just follow you quietly through the rest of your life. You won't be thinking abt it every single day, every single minute, every moment of your life.

You will carry on with life as per normal. Yet, it will just follow. Quietly. Almost transparent. As though it has already left. But it hasn't.

Then.

Hit you when you least expected it to come.

That's when the tiny trace of pain flows in. Like a tiny crack. Then diminishes. Then again. Then totally diminishes. Into total darkness. Into someplace you don't even know existed.

And, you have to make a choice.

To be bothered by it, like say... Hiding under the blanket and weep? Cursing and swearing why fate has brought you to where you are now?

Or say "Heck" and carry on with whatever you're doing?

I will choose the latter. Cos i'm over that crying and self-empathy phase.

In fact, i will love it if i'm never ever going through that again.

I tell you: You will hate yourself for being a piece of mess when someday you've woken up and look back. Of cos, you will take pride too. For surviving and becoming better.

Well... All i can say is: Time DO heal.

You can decide, who you want in your life, and who you don't ever want to be acquinted with, ever again.