i like to think my life is perfect with wat i made

as in

the choices i make....

Spoke to a certain someone sometime ago, and this sentence made such a OOMPH! impact on me, dat after so long,

it still lingers in some corner of my head... refusing to budge.

seeking for a refugee.

Like you,

we are searching for answers too....

aNd what is perfection? what is not?

what is life, if it's without regrets & some wrong decisions made along the way?

Mmm.....

爱像宗教，你信有就有。

答案不在别处。

只是，它存在的地方，也就是你最不想面对的黑暗面---

你的心。
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A friend just broke off from a 6 months old r/s.

"hey, i really need to listen to your advice on this

how you've been thru all these ordeals?

I think i'm not strong enough to go thru these."

it's not abt strong or not

it's abt acceptance

him: you still have to be strong to accept all these, isn't it?

nope u have to accept it first, then be strong to tide thru the rest.

u dont have to be strOng to accept tgs

u have to accept the fact, have to learn to live with it

and it takes time

not a week, a month

cos....

it doesnt have a time...

Everyone has their way of getting out of the mess, standing up and dusting off the tears and mess they have made.

Mine? I used the most extreme measure: i IMMERSED myself totally in sadness.

I pitied myself every second. I listened to ultimate sad love songs to feed my empty soul. I vented my emotions in my blog. I cried before my friends. I cried myself to sleep. I reminisce the moments that can never be the same again. I flipped through old photos. I called him then hanged up. I smsed him and told him how much i missed him. I pleaded with him for a second chance. I wrote long letters to him that i've never sent. I read self-help books. I made myself think that we could have a future together if only we tried harder.

And?

I snapped out of it.

All of them. Without any nostalgic feelings. Without traces of regrets.

There will come a time, where you TOTALLY hate yourself from head to toe for getting into such a big mess, and then you began to ponder if you will REALLY die without him.

And, like many others,

i woke up.

From the extremes, all the way to self recovery.

To my friend, you're still young, there's so many tgs for you to explore.

Like i've always believed.

You're your own worst enemy.

There're THOUSANDS of pple out there worst than you. And they got up.

SO!

Go out, get alive, get a life and boom!boom!

Sometimes, the best tgs happened when you least expected it to be. :)

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Anyway, on a lighter note.....

I'm gonna put this in my school lappy desktop pic to remind myself

HOW LUCKY i am!