- Whisperings of the Wind -

Dear Diary,

I was invited to the evangelistic service.

It could be the beginning of something if i agree (?)

A big plunge ahead of our current status.

"You can go n take a look." It keeps ringing in my head.

But i do not wish for anything to happen.

I wana hold on to my beliefs firmly. I shall be free.

***

Saw this on TvMobile:

男人害怕女人唠叨。

men are afraid of naggy women.

女人害怕男人沉默。
women are afraid of the silence.

It's pretty true for the 1st sentence. I'll raise two hands & feet for it.

Not sure abt the next one?

It's okay to face a quiet guy. I'll respect his space. If he wants that, take it.

*provided we feel comfortable*

But i can never stand a chatterbox. Or can i?

That depends hw well we've known each other. Or hw interesting the topic is.

It's tiring to be constantly catching up with what he's saying.

Or saying just for the sake of saying?

The problem lies with me, i think.

I'm beginning to feel i'm weird.

***

i'm beginning to think it's perfectly alright to be alone for the rest of my life.

Not a sad consolation or anything.

I just think it's perfect to live with myself. Go roam around the world.

I wana go Africa to see the wild. I wana go Europe. I wana go Egypt.

I wana taste all the good food in the world and compare. I wana go see how animals survive in the wild jungle. I wana find out if Pixies ever existed. I wana see if Finland is really that cold all year round. I wana see Santa and ask him why he never came. I wana go measure the leaning tower of Pisa. I wana go play with snow in Hokkaido.

I wana go experience the world and get soaked in its magic.

I've seen so little. So much so, i feel tiny.

But that day will come. Impossible is nothing.

***

LeeShan & i were briefly chatting on topics like cancer & the meaning of life today.

It was then i realise i'm still pretty disturbed by that word.

It's hard to get over.

***

Consolation is a form of art.

It has never been easy. I've asked around, and many pple tink the same way too.

How to pick the right words to say at appropriate times?

How to make it seem right, so much so that the person can feel much better?

Some people can just easily soothe your emotions.

It might not help alot, but still, it HELPS.

My way of consoling someone?

Staying quietly beside her. Like it or not, i'll be there.

***

I never really have an elder bro.

I never really have a father.

To be exact, it's just me & mother.

I've grew up to accept this fact.

You can't choose your parents, but you can choose how to look at things.

Accept it? You'll feel better. Numb it? You're escaping, but not a bad idea either.

Either way, i don't really have much that choice huh?

Can only make the best out of it.

I don't blame anyone.

Let's just say... It's all the right people living under the same wrong roof?

If one day mum's gone, i shall just move out and begin a life of my own.

And my one wish every year?

Take a family picture together.

Hah. And that's already a luxurious dream.

***

We were talking. Something's blossoming in the room.

We weren't sure, but can feel it coming.

The sunshine smiles whenever he sees her.

It's pretty fast. But it's coming.

Some hearts will be breaking. Cat fights shall begin?

It brings me back to the secondary sch days. My-oh-my.

***

Bought one adidas one fbt shorts today.

My oldest shorts is my JJC shorts. It's soooo 'seasoned to perfection' that i couldn't bear to throw it away though a side has a slit.

I love nua shorts. They make me feel like i'm wearing nothing. :)

***

How far will you go to make your dreams a reality?

I love volleyball. Couldn't continue cos of a mistake i've made. Missed the chance to get into the school team.

And now, my wish is to continue.

Can i still?

I realised i've even forgotten hw to serve. The basics of the basic.

I'm such a good-for-nothing.

***

This pic is how true~

爱情的开始， 是希望给“对方”一个未来；

爱情的结束，是希望给“自己”一个未来。

And i'm already late for my tv show!!!

These shld be all for today. I'm happy cos i've ate Katong Laksa today and a bus ride to untangle my thoughts :)

With love,
Xinz~*