I love not to talk on bus rides. Since i can't sleep on any moving vehicle, i take this time alone to pour out my thoughts, think through them and have a good time enjoying the scenery that passes me by.

Being unable to sleep on bus rides never bother me much.

Except the recent kelong trip that involved a 2hrs coach ride to the jetty.

Everywhere was pitch black. Nothing much to see. The road was pretty bumpy. Some kids came and interrupted my thoughts. Other colleagues, out of good will, talked to me even tho i kept reassuring them i'm alright being alone, looking out of the window.

Luckily, the moon that night was beautiful. I remembered. So the trip was pretty acceptable.

Then i spent a huge time in the kelong trip being alone. Or with just someone. Or just playing ard with the kids. Or just fishing. Or just listening to my mp3.

Once, i even brought my breakie out to the white benches and sit there, watching the sunrise and enjoying my porridge.

Not that i don't like the people. Definitely not. They are really a fun lot of pple.

Maybe i just need that few minutes to be alone, to listen to the distant laughter, to dwell on some unimportant stuffs, to see things that i love to see, to feel the peace and serenity.

Hanging ard with kids for a long time...

I seem to treasure those few seconds of silence more and more...

I need time to be alone, away from the bubbly crowd for awhile.

To sort out my confused thoughts. To sort out my life.

Surprisingly, these are the moments that i thoroughly enjoyed.

I still love people. I still love cheers and those singing along sessions. Those bitchy sessions or even those playing games times. Those MPR 21 & connect-4 games (i missed the gd o' days). Those jia bng, lazying around moments. Those jia fried chicken, waffle-ing times, those wonderful bus rides home.

Forgive me if these days i've not been smiling. Or i just choose to get away from the crowd.

I'm pretty okay. I'm not upset nor frustrated with anyone.

Just need to ... mm... sort things out. Throw away the negative stuffs.

And of cos, i welcome a frenly company anytime. Not too many at one go though =)

I still love you guys!!!