-- The 3 Musketeers --

Seriously speaking, there are times i wished i could fall in love with either one of them. Be it Kelvin. Be it Ah Joe.

That something will suddenly strike our empty hearts and let us see that actually 'the one' has all along been the one standing beside us, accompanying us through the growing years, seeing us through the painful experiences and we will hug each other in joyful tears.

Well, that's not a bad idea huh?

But too bad. It will just Never happened.

"Never say never," you retort back in that solemn voice, waving your index finger at me with glowing confidence.

If things were to happen, it jolly well happens a long long time ago.

Love to me was never like buying things in the market, where u go for those 'available ones', stuffs that people didnt put into their baskets.

Nope.

Kelvin is a fabulous guy. He sings well, he has a great smile, has a pretty comfortable salary & he will gladly walk me to the bustop to wait for the bus together before he walks home.

Ah Joe is fantastic. He sings well, dresses well, carries himself well, is a damn good gentleman and we can snuggle together like a longtime couple without that tinge of awkwardness.

Both of them are great. And they are highly single & available.

But th

ey are just my darling buddies. We fight hard times together, we celebrate important occasions together, we feel genuinely happy if one of us is happy, we got affected if one of us is upset.

Some people, they are just destined to be your good buddies. Your hi-bye aquintances, your so-called 'hao xiong di', your so-called 'hao jie mei'.

But? Never ever someone whom you will fall in love with.

There's just something lacking.

Too many consequences that will set you shivering even just by thinking abt it.

Plus the fact that you guys just noe each other tooooooo well you practically skip through the 'get-to-noe-each-other' courtship stage & jump into the 'ah-it's-u-again' lao fu lao qi stage.

eeeeeeeeeeeeeee........

I dont wana skip that ambigous stage lei. That's the most exciting part in a courtship isn't it?

So even if i'm single & available now, i wont jump at the sight of any 'highly available' single guys and wishfully hoping that they will set their eyes on me.

Yes, be it unrealistic or not, i still believe largely in something called 'chemistry'.

Something that no logic no words absolutely nothing can describe it.

Something that will make two people standing on different extremes come together and appreciating each other's differences.

Something that once you get to meet that person, u noe what i meant.

Do not ever tell me that feelings can be nurtured. I tried it with someone i thought i will gradually love and i fall terribly in a pile of mess, regretting every second of the day why i even allowed that to happen.

And right now, while futilely waiting for the so-called 'right' person to appear,
i should get out more often, hang out with friends & their friends' friends' friends, get myself highly involved in all sorts of sports & activities and keeping myself alittle busier so who i wont let my mind run too wild or staying up late at night just to blog about something so meaninglessly stupid.

Hah. Think i need more sleep. And more rainy nights to tuck me nicely into bed.

Don't you just love the sound of raindrops plattering on your windows?

Wish me goodnight.
And i wish you good night too.

Sweet dreams. =)